Spanner in the Works

So, things are getting complicated; or maybe I am complicating things. I have been told more than once that I am an over-thinker and that is fine with me for most of the times – up until the point it gets me in trouble.
You know how people can shrug things off? Well, when it comes to dating I find it a tiny but difficult. I was recently talking to a friend that told me that on the outside I act totally nonchalant and cool when inside I am hiding a full-on Fatal Attraction Glen Glose. Lock up your bunnies guys, G is in town.
So, this weekend I had an argument with the guy I have been seeing in the past month and it was a big one. I felt hurt, confused and totally unable to shrug it off. So, I decided that the best way to get my mind off it would be to go for a coffee with someone else to get some perspective. Do you see how this could get complicated?
So, I met this someone else for a casual coffee, which ended up being a walk, then lunch, then a kiss. The problem is, I like him. I mean, I don’t know him and I’ve only met him once, but I like him. I mean, I found myself going on full heart palpitations at the moment before the kiss and that is a telltale sign that we are in trouble.
So, yes, we are in trouble. Because now, I don’t know. I like the guy I have been seeing and we have not talked about exclusivity and I am pretty sure he has been seeing others. At the same time I like him and I don’t want to be a douche.
Having said that, I really like the new guy and would like a chance to get to know him better. It might lead to liking him more or to discovering there is no compatibility there; my heart tells me though that I could discover something special.
So, I am caught in the middle. I have never been in that position before and it is new to me. My plan is to take it one day at a time, be as authentic as I can, be honest with people and try to not hurt and get hurt.
It could all be ok in the end, right?

Love,

G

  

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