I just miss him

Why do I miss him still? A month has passed and my mind still wanders any chance it gets and runs to him. ‘Come on!’ I think with a sense of exasperation. Get over it!!

My head knows but my heart ignores it and aches. It misses him. I miss him. And I know, trust me, I know it is for the best. We were not there, we were not ready, he was not that into me as I was into him, or at least it was not strong enough to keep us together.

I just miss him. I miss the warmth of his skin, his vulnerable eyes, the grey in his beard, the way his lips tasted like ice cream and how happy having him in my life made me.

I just miss him; and I don’t want to give myself a hard time for missing him. I don’t want to say that ‘I should be over him by now, I should have moved on, I should not miss him’. Well, I do. And it hurts. And I will be kind to myself, because that is what I need right now.

I just miss him; and it is ok.




2 thoughts on “I just miss him

  1. Feedly keeps doing that thing… Ah well…

    People always say “get over it”, “move on”, “don’t spend your life waiting for shadows” but it’s not that easy. Especially if you are one of those hopeless dreamers with a heart too small to hold the overflowing feelings. You can’t hide an ocean in a tea cup.

    If you truly loved, it doesn’t just go away. It’s been 3 months since I heard the final goodbye and not a day has passed without missing him like crazy…

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