I met someone. And I like him. And I am afraid I will mess it up, in my signature ‘screw it up‘ way.
It is so scary liking someone. It is terrifying knowing that if you are going to open up, you become vulnerable, and you are effectively giving permission to someone to break your heart.
I will admit that I don’t have a thick enough skin yet. I am not at that point yet. However, I am here, and this is happening now and I did not plan for this and it feels too scary to move on; however it feels even scarier not to.
So, I will give it a go. I will go out with him again. I will try to shush this part of myself that says that it will end up in heartache; that he will not be interested; that I am not good enough. If it works, it works. If it doesn’t, it doesn’t.
This reminds me of John Green‘s quote from the Fault in our Stars: ‘You don’t get to choose if you get hurt in this world…but you do have some say in who hurts you. … It would be a privilege to have my heart broken by you.”
Lets do this.