Minding the Gap

The couple next to me is making a list on the back of a receipt. They look like they are in a hurry, the girl looking at the boy for reassurance, the boy looking at the list for an escape.

I am sitting at EAT. I just finished my lunch, and am now relaxing next to the window reading my book. The door is open, and the cold wind is rushing in, leaving the sunshine outside.
I had an orange juice. I need the vitamins. I am so tired. I had a lot of sleep, but my eyelids still feel heavy. It is all about perspective. I sleep more and feel more tired. It is all about perspective.

I am walking the fine line between content and stressed. A lot of things have changed in the past month -even in the past week. Have you ever experienced the kind of relief that will not allow you to be happy? The kind of relief that seems almost impossible; almost out of place?
I am so used to seeing my day as a list, that I forget the heading. Life. Living it. Not completing tasks, but experiencing moments.

I walked through a park today; I passed a patch of daisies, a full rubbish bin and a dog carrying a branch. I reached the road, and saw a gap between two buildings across the street. Everyone was walking past it, not paying attention to how wonderfully out of place it was. And then I noticed over the gap, how the wall of another building was taken over by a green moss; my heart skipped a beat. It was so beautiful, so unexpected, beauty of the world that stays hidden in plain sight. Looking at a gap should not only be about taking note of what is missing; it should be also be about finding out what is already there.

I sigh; the couple next to me have finished their list, and they look content; I am content too, even though my list is far from over.




5 thoughts on “Minding the Gap

  1. I love your writing style and agree with you that life shouldn’t be about completing lists but really enjoying the moment. Thanks for sharing your unique and beautiful perspective. I look forward to your posts.

  2. One of the greatest things I have learned in life so far is that nothing is something!! Normally during the semester I have no time what so ever. this next semester will be no exception as it is the semestr I apply for grad schools, HOWEVER I have already planned for me some ‘nothing’ evenings where I have my way with a bottle of wine OR go on a walk, go to the symphony, art exhibition and nerd out… I’m excited. OH! There’s also cooking. There will be plenty of that.


  3. Your posts are always worth reading, but this one particularly resonated with me. I don’t know if it’s your original thought, but I especially valued your comment: “I am so used to seeing my day as a list, that I forget the heading.”

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